A Few Moments of Sleeping and Waking

  EDWARDWOKEup.Piawasalreadyawake.

  "Whatdidyoudream?"

  "Youweremybrother,"Piasaid."Weweremak?ingafilm.Youwerethehero.Itwasaefilm.Youhadacapeandasword.Youwerejump?ingabout,jumpingontables.Butinthesedhalfofthefilmyouhadlostallyht.Youwerethin.Thefilmwasruihepartsdidntmatch."

  "Iwasyourbrother?"

  Scarlattifromtheradio.ItwasSunday.Petesatatthebreakfasttable.PetewasadoctoronanAmeriuclearsubmarine,apsychiatrist.Hehadjusteoffpatrol,fifty-eightdaysuhewater.PiagavePetescrambledeggswithmush?rooms,wienerbrod,salamiwithredwi,ba.PeteinterpretedPiasdream.

  "Edwardwasyourbrother?"

  "Yes."

  "AndyourrealbroingtoItaly,yousaid."

  "Yes."

  "Itmaybesomethingassimpleasadesiretotravel."

  Ediaaewentforaboatride,atourofthehagenharbor.Theboatheldonehundredaourists.Theysat,fourtour?istsabreast,ohersideoftheaisle.AguidespokeintoamicrophoneinDanish,French,Ger?man,andEnglish,telliouristswhatwasintheharbor.

  "Iinterpretedthatdreamverysketchily,"PetesaidtoEdward.

  "Yes."

  "Icouldhavedomorewithit."

  "Dont."

  "ThisistheDanishsubmari,"theguidesaidintothemicrophone.Ediaaeregardedthefourblacksubmariherehadbeenaflickeverynightoessubmariediscussedthefifty-eightflickshehadseeesatonEdwardscouchdiscussing"TheSoundofMusic."Edwardmadedrinks.RosesLimeJuicefellintotheGimletglasses.ThenEdiatookPetetotheairport.Peteflewaway.EdwardboughtTheInterpretationofDreams.

  Piadreamedthatshehadjouroagreathouse,acastle,tosing.Shehadfoundherselfabedinaroomoverlookingelabardens.Thenanirlappeared,achildhoodfriend.ThenewgirldemandedPiasbed.Piarefused.Theirlinsisted.Piarefused.Theirlbegantosing.Shesanghorribly.Piaaskedhertostop.ersappeared,demandingthatPiasur?rehebed.Piarefused.Peoplestoodaboutthebed,shoutingandsinging.

  Edwardsmokedacigar."Whydidntyoujustgiveherthebed?"

  "Myhonorwouldbehurt,"Piasaid."Youknow,thatgirlisnotlikethat.Reallysheisveryquietandnotasserting--asserting?--assertingherself.MymothersaidIshouldbemorelikeher."

  "Thedreamwassayingthatyourmotherwaswrongaboutthisgirl?"

  "Perhaps."

  "Whatelse?"

  "Itremember."

  "Didyousing?"

  "Itremember,"Piasaid.

  PiasbrotherSthedoorbell.Hewascarryingapairoftrousers.Piasewedupaspliti.Edwardmadeinstantcoffee.Piaexplainedblufaerdighedskraenkelse."Ifyouwalkwithyourtrousersopen,"shesaid.SaveEdia"TheJoanBaezSongbook.""Itisaverygoodone,"hesaidinEnglish.Thedoorbellrang.Itiasfather.HewascarryingapairofshoesPiahadleftatthefarm.Edwardmademorecoffee.Piasatonthefloorcuttingadressoutofblue,red,andgreencloth.Olearrived.Hewascarryinghisguitar.Hebegantoplaysomethingfrom"TheJoanBaezSongbook."EdwardregardedOlesMowglihair.Webeofoneblood,theeandI.Ed?wardreadTheInterpretationofDreams."Incaseswherenotmyegobutonlyastrangepersonap?pearsinthedream-tent,Imaysafelyassumethatbymeansofidentifiyegoiscealedbehindthatperson.Iampermittedtosupplementmyego."

  Edwardsatatasidewalkcafedrinkingabeer.Hewaswearinghisbrownsuedeshoes,hisblagarees,hisblad-whitecheckedshirt,hisredbeard,hisimmensespectacles.Edwardre?gardedhishands.Hishandsseemedold."Iamthirty-three."Tinygirlswalkedpastthesidewalkcafewearingskintightblats.Thenlargegirlsinskintightwhitepants.

  EdiawalkedalongFrederiksbergA116,uhequeerbox-cuttrees."HereIwasknoybicyclewhenIwasseven,"Piasaid."Byacar.Inasnowstorm."

  Edwardregardedthefamousinterse."Wereyouhurt?"

  "Mybicyclewasdemolishedutterly."

  EdwardreadTheInterpretationofDreams.Piabehesewingmae,sewingblue,red,andgreencloth.

  "FreudturnedhisfriendR.intoadisreputableuncle,inadream."

  "Why?"

  "Hewaobeanassistantprofessor.Hewasbugforassistantprofessor."

  "Sowhywasitnotallowed?"

  "TheydidntknowhewasFreud.Theyhadhemovie."

  "Yourejoking."

  "Imtrying."

  Ediatalkedaboutdreams.Piasaidshehadbeendreamingaboutunhappyloveaffairs.Inthesedreams,shesaid,shewasveryunhappy.Thenshewoke,relieved.

  "Howlong?"

  "Forabouttwomonths,Ithink.ButthenIandImhappy.Thatitisnotso."

  "Whyaretheyunhappyloveaffairs?"

  "Idontknow."

  "Doyouthinkitmeansyouwantnewloveaffairs?"

  "WhyshouldIwantunhappyloveaffairs?"

  "Maybeyouwanttohaveloveaffairsbutfeelguiltyaboutwantingtohaveloveaffairs,andsotheybeeunhappyloveaffairs."

  "Thatssubtle,"Piasaid."Youreinsecure."

  "Ho!"Edwardsaid.

  "ButwhythenamIhappywhenI?"

  "Becauseyoudonthavetofeelguiltyanymore,"Edwardsaidglibly.

  "Ho!"Piasaid.

  EdwardresistedTheInterpretationofDreams.HereadeightnovelsbyAnthonyPowell.PiawalkeddowreetinEdwardsbluesweater.Shelookedatherselfinashopwindow.Herhairwasrotten.Piawentintothebathroomandplayedwithherhairforonehour.Thenshebrushedherteethforabit.Herhairwasstillrotten.Piasatdownaocry.Shecriedforaquarterhour,withoutmakinganynoise.Everythingwasrotten.

  EdwardboughtMadamCherokeesDreamBook.Dreamsinalphabeticalorder.Ifyoudreamofblackcloth,therewillbeadeathinthefamily.Ifyoudreamofscissors,abirth.EdiasawthreefilmsbyJean-LucGodard.ThelandlordcameandaskedEdwardtopayDanishiax."ButIdontmakeanymoneyinDenmark,"Ed?wardsaid.Everythingwasrotten.

  Piacamehomefromthehairdresserwithblackvarnisharoundhereyes.

  "Howdoyoulikeit?"

  "Ihateit."

  Piawaschoppingupanenormouscabbage,acabbagebigasabasketball.Thecabbagewasofaraordinarysize.Itwasabigcabbage."Thatsabigcabbage,"Edwardsaid.

  "Big,"Piasaid.

  TheyregardedtheenormouscabbageGodhadplatheworldforsupper.

  "Istherevinegar?"Edwardasked."Ilike...vinegar...withmy..."Edwardreadamagazineformenfullofcoloredphotographsofnakedgirlslivingnormallives.Edwardreadtheates?man,withitsletterstotheeditor.Piaappearedinhernewblue,red,andgreendress.Shelookedwonderful.

  "Youlookwonderful."

  "Tak."

  "Tablesarewomen,"Edwardsaid."Youremem?beryousaidIwasjumpingontables,inyourdream.Freudsaysthattablesarefiguresforwomen.Youreinsecure."

  "Lavache!"Piasaid.

  Piareportedanewdream."IcamehometoasmalltownwhereIwasborn.First,Iranaroundasatouristwithmycamera.Thenaboywhowassellingsomething--fromohoselittlewagons?--askedmetotakehispicture.ButIcouldntfindhimioapparat.Intheviewglass.Alwaysotherpeoplegotintheway.Everyohistownwasdivorced.EverybodyIkheoaladiesclub,aplacewherethewomehementodatherewasonlyohere.Hispicturewasonaisementoutside.Hewasthegigolo.Gigolo?Isthatright?ThenIcalleduppeopleIknew,oelephotheywerealldivorced.Everybodywasdi?vorced.Mymotherandfatherweredivorced.HelleandJensweredivorced.Everybody.Every?bodywasfloatingaboutinastrangeway."

  Edwardgroaned.Apalpablegroan."Whatelse?"

  "Itremember."

  "Nothingelse?"

  "WhenIwasonmywaytotheladiesclub,theboyIhadtriedtotakeapictureofcameupandtookmyarm.IwassurprisedbutIsaidtomyselfsomethinglike,Itsnecessarytohavefriendshere."

  "Whatelse?"

  "Itremember."

  "Didyousleepwithhim?"

  "Idontremember."

  "Whatdidtheladiesclubremindyouof?"

  "Itwasinacellar."

  "Diditremindyouofanything?"

  "Itwasratherlikeaplaceattheuy.Whereweusedtodance."

  "Whatisectedwiththatplayourmind?"

  "Onethroughawindoarty."

  "Whydidheethroughthewindow?"

  "Sohedidntpay."

  "Whowashe?"

  "Someone."

  "Didyoudahhim?"

  "Yes."

  "Didyousleepwithhim?"

  "Yes."

  "Veryoften?"

  "Twice."

  EdiawenttoMalmoontheflyingboat.Thehydrofoilleapedintotheair.Thefeelingwasthatofaplanelabdownaninterminablerunway.

  "Idreamedofaroof,"Piasaid."Wheret.Whereitwasstored."

  "Whatdoesthat--"Edwardbegan.

  "AlsoIdreameds.Iwasbeatingarug,"shewenton."AndIdreamedabouthorses,Iwasriding."

  "Dont,"Edwardsaid.

  Piasilentlyrehearsedthreeadditionaldreams.EdwardregardedthegreenleavesofMalmo.Ed?iamovedthroughtherugdepartmentofadepartmentstore.Surroundedbyexgrugs:Ryarugs,Polishrugs,ragrugs,strawrugs,arearugs,wall-to-wallrugs,rugremnants.Edwardwasthinkingaboutocostfivehundreds,insevenshadesofred,aboutthesizeofanopened-upHeraldTribune,Parisedition.

  "Itistoogoodforthefloor,clearly,"Piasaid."Itistobehungonthewall."

  Edwardhadfourhundreddollarsinhispocket.Itposedtolasthimtwomonths.Thehid?eouslysmilingrugsalesmanpressedcloser.Theyburstintothestreet.Justintime."Godknowstheyrebeautiful,however,"Edwardsaid.

  "Whatdidyoudreamlastnight?"Edwardasked."Whatdidyoudream?What?"

  "Itremember."

  EdwarddecidedthatheworriedtoomuchaboutthedarksideofPia.Piaregardedasamoon.Ed?wardlayiryingtorememberadream.Hecouldnotremember.Itwaseightoclock.Edwardclimbedoutofbedtoseeiftherewasmailonthefloor,ifmailhadfallenthroughthedoor.No.Piaawoke.

  "Idreamedofbeans."

  Edwardlookedather.MadamCherokeesDreamBookflewintohishand.

  "Todreamofbeansis,inallcases,veryunfor?tuingthemmeanssiess,preparingthemmeansthatthemarriedstatewillbeaverydifficultoneforyou.Todreamofbeetsisoherhandahappyomen."

  Ediaarguedabout"Mrs.Miniver."ItwasnotwrittenbyJ..B.Priestley,Edwardsaid."Irememberitverywell,"Piainsisted."ErrolFlynnwasherhusband,hewasstandingtherewithhisstraps,hisstraps"--Piamadeaholding-up-tresture--"hanging,andshesaidthatshelovedWalterPidgeon."

  "ErrolFlynnwasnoteveniure.YouthinkJ.B.Priestleywroteeverything,dontyou?EverythinginEnglish."

  "Idont."

  "ErrolFlynnwasnoteveniure."Ed?wardwasdrunk.Hewasshouting."ErrolFlynnwasnoteven...in...thegoddampicture!"

  Piawasnotquiteasleep.Shewasstandingonastreeter.Wardedheroutoftheersoftheireyes.Shewasholdingastringbagtainingstrawberries,beer,razorblades,turnips.Anoldladyrodeuponabicydstoppedforthetrafficlight.Theoldladystraddledherbicycle,seizedPiasstringbag,andthrewitintothegutter.Thenshepedalledaway,withtheginglight.Peoplecrowdedaround.Someonepickedupthestringbag.Piashookherhead."No,"shesaid."Shejust...Ihaveneverseenherbefore."SomeoneaskedPiaifshewantedhimtocallapoli."Whatfor?"Piasaid.Herfatherwasstandingtheresmiling.Piathought,Thesethingshavenosignificereally.Piathought,Ifthisistobemydreamfortonight,thenIdontwantit.松语文学www.16sy.coM免费小说阅读

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