MAY, 1944
TUESDAY,MAY2,1944
DearestKitty,
SaturdaynightIaskedPeterwhetherhethinksIshouldtellFatheraboutus.Afterweddiscussedit,hesaidhethoughtIshould.Iwasglad;itshowshessensible,aive.AssoonasIcamedownstairs,IwentwithFathertogetsomewater.Whilewewereoairs,Isaid,"Father,ImsureyouvegatheredthatwheerandIaretogether,wedolysitatoppositeendsoftheroom.Doyouthinkthatswrong?”
Fatherpausedbeforeanswering:"No,Idontthinkitswrong.ButAnne,whenyourelivingsoclosetogether,aswedo,youhavetobecareful."Hesaidsomeotherwordstothateffedtheupstairs.
Sundaymhecalledmetohimandsaid,"Anne,Ivebeenthinkingaboutwhatyousaid."(Oh,oh,Ikneasing!)"HereintheAsnotsuchagoodidea.Ithoughtyouwerejustfriends.IsPeterihyou?”
"Ofcoursenot,"Ianswered.
"Well,youknowIuandbothofyou.Butyoumustbetheooshowrestraint;
dontgoupstairssooften,dontencehimmorethanyouhelp.Inmatterslikethese,itsalwaysthemanwhotakestheactiverole,anditsuptothewomahelimits.Outside,whereyourefree,thingsarequitedifferent.Youseeotherboysandgirls,yougooutdoors,takepartinsportsandallkindsofactivities.Buthere,ifyethertoomudwanttogetaway,yout.Youseeeachothereveryhouroftheday-allthetime,infact.Becareful,Anne,anddonttakeittooseriously!
"Idont,Father,butPetersadetboy,aniceboy.”
"Yes,buthedoesnthavemuchstrengthofcharacter.Heeasilybeinflueodogood,butalsotodobad.Ihopeforhissakethathestaysgood,becausehesbasicallyagoodperson."
WetalkedsomemoreandagreedthatFatherwouldspeaktohimtoo.
Sundayafternoonereinthefrontattic,Peterasked,"HaveyoutalkedtoyourFatheryet,Anne?”
"Yes,"Ireplied,"Illtellyouallaboutit.Hedoesntthinkitswrong,buthesaysthathere,wherewereinsuchclosequarters,itcouldleadtoflicts.”
"Wevealreadyagreednottoquarrel,andIplantokeepmypromise.”
"Metoo,Peter.ButFatherdidntthinkwewereserious,hethoughtwewerejustfriends.Doyouthiillbe?”
"Yes,Ido.Howaboutyou?”
"Metoo.IalsotoldFatherthatItrustyou.Idotrustyou,Peter,justasmuchasIdoFather.AndIthinkyoureworthyofmytrust.Youare,arentyou?”
"Ihopeso."(Hewasveryshy,andblushing.)
"Ibelieveinyou,Peter,"Itinued."Ibelieveyouhaveagoodcharacterandthatyoullgetaheadinthisworld.”
Afterthatwetalkedaboutotherthings.LaterIsaid,"Ifweevergetoutofhere,Iknowyouwontgivemeahought.”
Hegotallfiredup."Thatsnottrue,Anne.Ohno,Iwoyoueventhinkthataboutme!”
Justthensomebodycalledus.
Fatherdidtalktohim,hetoldmeMonday."YourFatherthoughtourfriendshipmightturnintolove,"hesaid."ButItoldhimwedkeepourselvesundertrol.”
Fatherwaopgoingupstairssooften,butIdontwantto.NotjustbecauseIlikebeingwithPeter,butbecauseIvesaidItrusthim.Idotrusthim,andIwanttoproveittohim,butIllneverbeabletoifIstaydownstairsoutofdistrust.
No,Imgoing!
InthemeaheDusseldramahasbeenresolved.Saturdayeveningatdinnerhe
apologizediifulDutch.Mr.vanDaanwasimmediatelyreciled.Dusselmusthavespentalldaypractighisspeech.
Sunday,hisbirthday,passedwithouti.Wegavehimabottleofgoodwinefrom1919,thevanDaans(whoowgivetheirgiftafterall)presentedhimwithajarofpiccalilliandapackageofrazorblades,andMr.Kuglergavehimajaroflemonsyrup(tomakelemonade),Miepabook,LittleMartin,andBepaplareatedeveryooanegg.
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
WEDNESDAY,MAY3,1944
DearestKitty,
Firsttheweeklynews!Werehavingavacationfrompolitics.Theresnothing,andImeanabsolutelynothing,toreport.Imalsograduallystartingtobelievethattheinvasionwille.Afterall,theytlettheRussiansdoallthedirtywork;
actually,theRussiadoinganythingatthemomeher.
Mr.Kleimaheofficeeverymnow.HegotasforPetersdivan,soPeterwillhavetogettoworkreupholsteringit;Notsurprisingly,heisntatallinthemood.Mr.Kleimanalshtsomefleapowderforthecats.
HaveItoldyouthatourBochehasdisappeared?WehaventseenhidenorhairofhersiThursday.Shesprobablyalreadyincatheaven,whilesomeanimalloverhasturoatastydish.PerhapssomegirlwhoafforditwillbewearingacapmadeofBochesfur.Peterisheartbroken.
Forthelasttwoweekswevebeeinglunchateleven-thirtyonSaturdays;inthemswehavetomakedoofhotcereal.Startingtomorrowitllbelikethiseveryday;thatsavesusameal.Vegetablesarestillveryhardtoeby.Thisafternoonwehadrottenboiledlettuce.Ordinarylettuce,spinadboiledlet-tuce,thatsallthereis.Addtothatrottenpotatoes,andyouhaveamealfitforaking!
Ihadnthadmyperiodformorethantwomonths,butitfinallystartedlastSunday.
Despitethemessandbladithasedme.
Asyouodoubtimagiensayindespair,"Whatsthepointofthewar?
Why,oh,eoplelivetogetherpeacefully?Whyallthisdestru?"
Thequestionisuandable,butuptonownoonehaseupwithasatisfactoryanswer.WhyisEnglandmanufacturingbiggeraerairplanesandbombsandatthesametimeingoutnewhousesforrestru?Whyaremillioonthewareachday,whilenotapennyisavailableformedicalsce,artistsorthepoor?Whydopeoplehavetostarvewhenmountainsoffoodarerottingawayinotherpartsoftheworld?Oh,eoplesocrazy?
Idontbelievethewarissimplytheworkofpolitisandcapitalists.Ohno,theaniseverybitasguilty;otherwise,peopleandnationswouldhavere-belledlongago!Theresadestructiveurgeinpeople,theurgete,murderandkill.Anduntilallofhumanity,withoutexception,undergoesametamorphosis,warswilltiobewaged,ahingthathasbeencarefullybuiltup,cultivatedandgrownwillbecutdownaroyed,onlytostartallain!
Iveoftenbeendowninthedumps,butneverdesperate.Ilookuponourlifeinhidingasaingadventure,fullofdangerandromandeveryprivationasanamusingadditiontomydiary.Ivemadeupmymindtoleadadifferentlifefromirls,andnottobeeanordinaryhousewifelateron.WhatImexperienghereisagoodbeginningtoainglife,andthatsthereason--theonlyreason--whyIhavetolaughatthehumoroussideofthemostdangerousmoments.
Imyoungandhavemanyhiddenqualities;Imyoungandstrongandlivingthroughabigadventure;Imrightinthemiddleofitandtspendalldayplainingbecauseitsimpossibletohaveanyfun!Imblessedwithmanythings:happiness,acheerfuldispositionandstrength.EverydayIfeelmyselfmaturing,Ifeelliberationdrawingnear,Ifeelthebeautyofnatureandthegoodnessofthepeoplearoundme.EverydayIthinkwhatafasatingandamusingadvehisis!Withallthat,whyshouldIdespair?
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
FRIDAY,MAY5,1944
DearKitty,
Fathersunhappywithme.AfterourtalkonSundayhethoughtIdstopgoingupstairseveryevenihaveanyofthat"Knutscherej"*[*Neg]goingon.Itstandthatword.Talkingaboutitwasbadenough--whydoeshehavetomakemefeelbadtoo!Illhaveawordwithhimtoday.Margotgavemesomegoodadvice.
HeresmoreorlesswhatIdliketosay:
Ithinkyouexpeexplanationfromme,Father,soIllgiveyouone.Youredisap-pointedinme,youexpectedmorerestraintfromme,younodoubtwaoactthewayafourteen-year-oldissupposedto.Butthatswhereyourewrong!
Sincewevebeenhere,fromJuly1942untilafewweeksago,Ihaventhadaime.IfonlyyouknewhowmuchIusedtocryatnight,hoyanddespoIwas,howlonelyIfelt,youduandmywantingtogoupstairs!IvenowreachedthepointwhereIdohesupportofMotheroranyoneelse.Itdidnthappenht.IvestruggledlongandhardandshedmaobeeasindepeasIamnow.Youlaughandrefusetobelieveme,butIdontcare.IknowImanindepeperson,andIdontfeelIoattoyouformyas.ImonlytellingyouthisbecauseIdontwantyoutothinkImdoingthingsbehindyourback.ButtheresonlyonepersonImatableto,andthatsme.
WhenIwashavingproblems,everyone--andthatincludesyou--closedtheireyesandearsanddidnthelpme.Orary,allIevergotwereadmonitionsnottobesonoisy.Iwasnoisyonlytokeepmyselffrombeingmiserableallthetime.Iwasoverfidenttokeepfromhavingtolistentothevoisideme.Ivebeenputtingonanactforthelastyearandahalf,dayin,dayout.Iveneverplainedordroppedmymask,nothingofthekind,andnow...nowthebattleisover.Ivewon!Imindepe,inbothbodyandmind.Idontneedamotheranymore,andIveemergedfromthestruggleastrongerperson.
Nowthatitsover,nowthatIknowthebattlehasbeenwon,Iwanttogomyownway,tofollowthepaththatseemsrighttome.Dontthinkofmeasafourteen-year-old,sihesetroubleshavemademeolder;Iwretmyas,IllbehavethewayIthinkIshould!
Gentlepersuasionwontkeepmefromgoingupstairs.Youlleitherhavetoforbidit,ortrustmethroughthidthin.Whateveryoudo,justleavemealone!
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
SATURDAY,MAY6,1944
DearestKitty,
LastnightbeforediuckedtheletterIdwrittenintoFatherspocket.Acctot,hereaditandsetfortherestoftheevening.(Istairsdoingthedishes!)PoorPim,Imighthaveknownwhattheeffectofsuepistlewould
be.Hessosensitive!IimmediatelytoldPeternottoaskaionsorsayanythingmore.Pimssaidnothiomeaboutthematter.Ishegoingto?
Everythinghereismoreorlessbaal.WehardlybelievewhatJan,Mr.
KuglerandMr.Kleimantellusaboutthepridthepeopleoside;halfapoundofteacosts350.00guilders,halfapoundofcoffee80.00guilders,apoundofbutter35.00guilders,oneegg1.45guilders.Peoplearepaying14.00guildersanouncefariantobacco!Everyoradingontheblackmarket;everyerrandboyhassomethingtooffer.Thedeliveryboyfromthebakeryhassupplieduswithdarningthread-90tsforonemeaslyskein-themilkmangetholdofrationbooks,aakerdeliverscheese.Break-ins,murdersasaredailyoccurrences.Eventhepolidnightwataregettingino.Everyostoputfoodiomachs,andsincesalarieshavebeenfrozen,peoplehavehadtoresorttoswindling.Thepolicehavetheirhandsfulltryingtotrackdownthemanygirlsoffifteen,sixteeeenandolderwhoarereportedmissingeveryday.
IwanttotrytofinishmystoryaboutEllen,thefairy.Justforfun,IgiveittoFatheronhisbirthday,togetherwithallthechts.
Seeyoulater!(Actually,thatsnottherightphrase.IntheGermanprogrambroadcastfromEnglandtheyalwaysclosewith"Aufwiederhoren."SoIguessIshouldsay,"Untilwewriteagain.")
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
SUNDAYM,MAY7,1944
DearestKitty,
FatherandIhadalongtalkyesterdayafternoon.Icriedmyeyesout,andhecriedtoo.Doyouknowwhathesaidtome,Kitty?
"Ivereceivedmaersinmylifetime,butnoneashurtfulasthis.You,whohavehadsomuchlovefromyourparents.You,whoseparentshavealwaysbeeohelpyou,whohavealwaysdefendedyou,nomatterwhat.Youtalkofnothavingtoattousforyouras!Youfeelyouvebeenwrongedaoyourowndevio,Anne,youvedoneusagreatinjustice!
"Perhapsyoudidthatway,butthatswhatyouwrote.No,Anne,wehavedohingtodeservesuchareproach!"
Oh,Ivefailedmiserably.ThisistheworstthingIveeverdoneiirelife.Iusedmytearstoshowoff,tomakemyselfseemimportantsohedrespectme.Ivecertainlyhadmyshareofunhappiness,ahingIsaidaboutMotheristrue.ButtoaccusePim,whossogoodandwhosdohingforme-no,thatwastoocruelforwords.
Itsgoodthatsomebodyhasfinallycutmedowntosize,hasbrokenmypride,becauseIvebeenfartoosmug.NoteverythingMistressAnnedoesisgood!Any-onewhodeliberatelycausessuchpaintosomeoheysaytheyloveisdespicable,thelowestofthelow!
WhatImmostashamedofisthewayFatherhasfivenme;hesaidhesgoingtothrowtheletteriove,andhesbeingsoomenow,asifheweretheonewhoddonesomethingwrong.Well,Anne,youstillhavealottolearn.Itstimeyoumadeabeginning,in-steadoflookingdownatothersandalwaysgiviheblame!
Iveknownalotofsorrow,butwhohasntatmyage?Ivebeenputtingonanact,butwashardlyevenawareofit.Ivefeltlonely,butneverdesperate!NotlikeFather,whoonoutintothestreetwithaknifesohecouldputaoitall.Ivenevergofar.
Ishouldbedeeplyashamedofmyself,andIam.Whatsdobeuatleastyoukeepitfromhappeningagain.Idliketostartallover,andthatshouldntbedifficult,nowthatIhavePeter.Withhimsuppme,IknowIdoit!Imnotaloneanymore.Helovesme,Ilovehim,Ihavemybooks,mywritingandmydiary.Imnotallthatugly,orthatstupid,Ihaveasunnydisposition,andIwanttodevelopagoodcharacter!
Yes,Anne,youknewfullwellthatyourletterwasunkindanduyouwereactuallyproudofit!IlltakeFatherasmyexampleonceagain,andIwillimprovemyself.
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
MONDAY,MAY8,1944
DearestKitty,
HaveIevertoldyouanythingaboutourfamily?IdontthinkIhave,soletmebegin.
FatherwasborninFrankfurtamMaintoverywealthyparents:MichaelFrankowned
abankandbecameamillionaire,andAliceSternsparentswerepromiao-do.MichaelFrankdidntstartoutrich;hewasaself-mademan.InhisyouthFatherledthelifeofarisson.Partieseveryweek,balls,bas,beautifulgirls,waltzing,dinners,ahugehouse,etc.AfterGrandpadied,mostofthemoneywaslost,andaftertheGreatWarandinflationtherewasnothiall.Upuntilthewartherewerestillquiteafewrichrelatives.SoFatherwasextremelywell-bred,aolaughyesterdaybecauseforthefirsttimeinhisfifty-fiveyears,hescrapedoutthefryingpanatthetable.
Mothersfamilywasntaswealthy,butstillfairlywell-off,andwevelistenedopenmouthedtostoriesofprivateballs,dinnersandepartieswith250guests.
Werefarfromriow,butIvepinnedallmyhopesohewar.Iassureyou,ImnotsosetonabeoislifeasMotherandMargot.IdliketospendayearinParisandLondonlearningthelanguagesandstudyingarthistory.parethatwithMargot,whowantstonursenewbornsiiillhavevisionseousdressesandfasatingpeople.AsIvetoldyoumanytimesbefore,Iwanttoseetheworldanddoallkindsofexgthings,andalittlemoneywonthurt!
ThismMieptoldusabouthercousinseparty,whichshewenttoonSaturday.Thecousinsparentsareridthegroomsareevenricher.Miepmadeourmouthswatertellingusaboutthefoodthatwasserved:vegetablesoupwithmeatballs,cheese,rollswithslicedmeat,horsdoeuvresmadewitheggsandroastbeef,rollswithcheese,genoise,wineandcigarettes,andyoucouldeatasmuchasyouwanted.
Miepdranktensappsandsmokedthreecigarettes--couldthisbeourtemperanceadvocate?IfMiepdrankallthose,Iwonderhowmanyherspousemaossdown?Everyohepartywasalittletipsy,ofcourse.TherewerealsotwoofficersfromtheHomicideSquad,whotookphotographsoftheweddingcouple.YouseewereneverfarfromMiepsthoughts,sinceshepromptlyheirnamesandaddressesihingshouldhappenandweneededtactswithgoodDutchpeople.
Ourmouthswerewateringsomuch.We,whodhadnothingbuttwospoonfulsofhotcerealforbreakfastandwereabsolutelyfamished;we,whogetnothingbuthalf-cookedspinach(forthevitamins!)androttenpota-toesdayafterday;we,whofillouremptystomachswithnothingbutboiledlettuce,rawlettuce,spinach,spinadmorespinach.MaybewellendupbeingasstrongasPopeye,thoughuptonowIveseennosignofit!
IfMiephadtakenusalongtotheparty,therewouldnthavebeenanyrollsleftoverfortheuests.Ifwedbeenthere,wedhavesnatchedupeverythinginsight,includingthefurniture.Itellyou,wewerepracticallypullingthewhtoutofhermouth.Weweregatheredaroundherasifwedneverinallourlivesheardof”
deliciousfantpeople!Andthesearethegranddaughtersofthedistinguishedmillioheworldisacrazyplace!
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
TUESDAY,MAY9,1944
DearestKitty,
IvefinishedmystoryaboutEllen,thefairy.Ivecopieditoutoepaper,decorateditwithredinkahepagestogether.Thewholethinglooksquitepretty,butIdontknowifitsenoughofabirthdaypresent.MargotandMotherhavebothwrittenpoems.
Mr.KuglercameupstairsthisafternoonwiththehatstartingMonday,Mrs.
Brokswouldliketospendtwohoursintheofficeeveryafternoon.Justimagiheofficestaffwontbeabletoeupstairs,thepotatoestbedelivered,Bepwoherdinner,wetgotothebathroom,wewontbeabletomoveandallsortsofotherinveniences!Weproposedavarietyofwaystogetridofher.Mr.vanDaanthoughtagoodlaxativeinhercoffeemightdothetrick."No,"Mr.Kleimananswered,"pleasedont,orwellheroffthe.
Aroaroflaughter."The?"Mrs.vanD.asked."Whatdoesthatmean?"Anexplanationwasgiven."Isitallrighttousethatword?"sheaskedinperfeoce."Justimagine,"Bepgiggled,"thereyouareshoppingatTheBijenkorfandyouaskthewaytothe.Theywouldntevenknowwhatyouweretalkingabout!”
Dusselnowsitsonthe","toborrowtheexpression,everydayattwelve-thirtyo.ThisafternoonIboldlytookapieceofpinkpaperandwrote:
Mr.DusselsToiletTimetableMsfrom7:15to7:30A.M.
Afternoonsafter1P.M.
Otherwise,onlyasneeded!
Itackedthistothegreenbathroomdoorwhilehewasstillinside.ImightwellhaveaddedTransgressorswillbesubjecttofi!"Becauseourbathroombelockedfromboththeiheoutside.
Mr.vanDaanslatestjoke:
AfteraBiblelessonaboutAdamahirteen-year-oldboyaskedhisfather,"Tellme,Father,howdidIgetborn?”
"Well,"thefatherreplied,"thestorkpluckedyououtoftheo,setyoudowninMothersbedandbitherintheleg,hard.Itbledsomuchshehadtostayinbedforaweek.”
Notfullysatisfied,theboywenttohismother."Tellme,Mother,"heasked,"howdidyougetbornandhowdidIgetborn?”
Hismothertoldhimtheverysamestory.Finally,hopingtohearthefinepoints,hewenttohisgrandfather."Tellme,Grandfather,"hesaid,"howdidyougetbornandhowdidyhtergetborn?"Andforthethirdtimehewastoldexactlythesamestory.
Thatnighthewroteinhisdiary:"Aftercarefulinquiry,Imustcludethattherehasbeennosexualintercourseinourfamilyforthelastthreegeions!”
Istillhaveworktodo;itsalreadythreeoclock.
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
PS.Sihiiohenewinglady,Ijustwanttoshesmarried,sixtyyearsoldandhardofhearing!Veryve,inviewofalltheeightpeopleinhidingarecapableofmak-ing.
Oh,Kit,itssuchlovelyweather.IfonlyIcouldgooutside!
WEDNESDAY,MAY10,1944
DearestKitty,
WeweresittingiicyesterdayafternoonourFrenchwhensuddenlyIheardthesplatterofwaterbehindme.IaskedPeterwhatitmightbe.Withoutpausingtoreply,hedasheduptotheloft-theseofthedisaster--andshoved
Mouschi,whowassquattingbesidehersoggylitterbox,backthtplace.Thiswasfollowedbyshoutsandsqueals,andthenMouschi,whobythattimehadfinishedpeeing,tookoffdownstairs.Insearethingsimilartoherbox,Mouschihadfoundherselfapileofwoodshavings,rightoveracrathefloor.Thepuddleimmediatelytrickleddowntotheattid,asluckwouldhaveit,landedinaothepotatobarrel.Thegwasdripping,andsiheatticfloorhasalsogotitsshareofcracks,littleyellowdropswereleakingthroughtheceilingandontothediningtable,betileofstogsandbooks.
Iwasdoubledupwithlaughter,itwassuchafunnysight.TherewasMouschicrouchedunderachair,Peterarmedwithwater,powderedbleadacloth,andMr.
vanDaantryingtocalmeveryonedown.Theroomwassoohts,butitsawell-knownfactthatcatpuddlesstinktohighheaveatoesprovedthatalltoowell,asdidthewoodshavings,whichFathercollectedinabucketandbroughtdownstairstoburn.
PoorMouschi!Howwereyoutoknowitsimpossibletogetpeatforyourbox?
AHURSDAY,MAY11,1944
DearestKitty,
Anewsketakeyoulaugh:
Petershairhadtobecut,andasusualhismotherwastobethehairdresser.Atsevey-fivePetervaohisroom,andreappearedatthestrokeofseven-thirty,strippeddowntohisblueswimmingtrunksandapairoftennisshoes.
"Areyouing?"heaskedhismother.
"Yes,IllbeupinamiItfindthescissors!”
Peterhelpedherlook,rummagingaroundinhereticsdrawer."Dontmakesuchamess,Peter,"shegrumbled.
IdidntcatchPetersreply,butitmusthavebeeni,becauseshecuffedhimonthearm.Hecuffedherback,shepunchedhimwithallhermight,aerpulledhisarmawaywithalookofmockhorroronhisface."eon,oldgirl!"
Mrs.vanD.stayedput.Petergrabbedherbythewristsandpulledherallaroundtheroom.Shelaughed,cried,scoldedandkicked,butnothinghelped.Peterledhisprisonerasfarastheatticstairs,wherehewasobligedtoletgoofher.Mrs.vanD.
camebacktotheroomandcollapsedintoachairwithaloudsigh.
"DieEnifu"hruter,".Ijoked.[*TheAbduother,apossiblerefereoMozartsoperaTheAbdufromtheSeraglio.]"Yes,buthehurtme.”
Iwenttohavealookandcooledherhot,redwristswithwater.Peter,stillbythestairsandgrowingimpa-tientagain,strodeintotheroomwithhisbeltinhishand,likealiontamer.Mrs.vanD.didntmove,butstayedbyherwritingdesk,lookingforahandkerchief."Youvegottoapologizefirst.”
"Allright,Iherebyoffermyapologies,butonlybecauseifIdont,wellbeheretillmidnight.”
Mrs.vanD.hadtolaughinspiteofherself.Shegotupaowardthedoor,whereshefeltobligedtogiveusanexplanation.(ByusImeanFather,Motherandme;wewerebusydoingthedishes.)"Hewasntlikethisathome,"shesaid."Idhavebeltedhimsohardhedhavegoneflyingdowairs[!].Hesneverbeensoihisisntthefirsttimehesdeservedagoodhiding.Thatswhatyougetwithamodernupbringing,modernchildren.Idneverhavegrabbedmymotherlikethat.Didyoutreatyourmotherthatway,Mr.Frank?"Shewasveryupset,pagbadforth,sayingwhatevercameintoherhead,aillhadntgoairs.
Finally,atlonglast,shemadeherexit.
Lessthanfivemiershestormedbackdowairs,withhercheeksallpuffedout,andflungheraprononachair.WhenIaskedifshewasthrough,sherepliedthatshewasgoingdownstairs.Shetoredowairslikeatornado,probablystraightintothearmsofherPutti.
Shedidnteupagainu,thistimewithherhusbaerwasdraggedfromtheattic,givenamercilessscoldingandshoweredwithabuse:ill-manneredbrat,no-goodbum,badexample,Ahis,Margotthat,Icouldherest.
Everythiohavecalmeddownagaintoday!
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
P.S.TuesdayandWednesdayeveningourbelovedQueenaddressedthetry.Shestakingavacationsoshellbeingoodhealthforherreturntotheherlands.
Sheusedwordslike"soon,whenImbaHolland,""aswiftliberation,""heroism”
and"heavyburdens.”
ThiswasfollowedbyaspeechbyPrimeMinisterGerbrandy.HehassuchasqueakylittlechildsvoicethatMotherinstinctivelysaid,"Oooh."Aclergyman,whomusthaveborrowedhisvoir.Edel,cludedbyaskingGodtotakecareoftheJews,allthoseintrationcampsandprisonsandeveryonewinGermany.
THURSDAY,MAY11,1944
DearestKitty,
SinceIveleftmyentire"junkbox"--includingmyfountainpen--upstairsandImnotallowedtodisturbthegrown-upsduringtheirnaptime(untiltwo-thirty),youllhavetomakedowithaletterinpencil.
Imterriblybusyatthemoment,andstramaysound,Idonthaveenoughtimetogetthroughmypileofwork.ShallItellyoubrieflywhatIvegottodo?Wellthen,beforetomorrowIhavetofinishreadingthefirstvolumeofabiographyofGalileoGalilei,sihastobereturhelibrary.Istartedreadingityesterdayandhavegottenuptopage220outof320pages,soIllma.weekIhavetoreadPalestiheCross-roadsandthesedvolumeofGalilei.Besidesthat,IfihefirstvolumeofabiographyofEmperorCharlesVyesterday,andIstillhavetoworkoutthemanygenealogicalchartsIvecollectedaesIvetaken.
Ihavethreepagesnwordsfrommyvariousbooks,allofwhichhavetobewrittendown,memorizedandreadaloud.Numberfour:mymoviestarsareinaterribledisarrayandaredyingtobestraighte,butsilltakeseveraldaystodothatandProfessorAnneis,asshesalreadysaid,uptoherearsinwork,theyllhavetoputupwiththechaosawhilelohentherereTheseus,Oedipus,Peleus,Orpheus,JasonandHerculesallwaitingtobeuntangled,siheirvariousdeedsarerunningcrisscrossthroughmymindlikemul-ticoloredthreadsinadress.MyronandPhidiasarealsentlyinneedofattention,orelseIl松语文学www.16sy.coM免费小说阅读
DearestKitty,
SaturdaynightIaskedPeterwhetherhethinksIshouldtellFatheraboutus.Afterweddiscussedit,hesaidhethoughtIshould.Iwasglad;itshowshessensible,aive.AssoonasIcamedownstairs,IwentwithFathertogetsomewater.Whilewewereoairs,Isaid,"Father,ImsureyouvegatheredthatwheerandIaretogether,wedolysitatoppositeendsoftheroom.Doyouthinkthatswrong?”
Fatherpausedbeforeanswering:"No,Idontthinkitswrong.ButAnne,whenyourelivingsoclosetogether,aswedo,youhavetobecareful."Hesaidsomeotherwordstothateffedtheupstairs.
Sundaymhecalledmetohimandsaid,"Anne,Ivebeenthinkingaboutwhatyousaid."(Oh,oh,Ikneasing!)"HereintheAsnotsuchagoodidea.Ithoughtyouwerejustfriends.IsPeterihyou?”
"Ofcoursenot,"Ianswered.
"Well,youknowIuandbothofyou.Butyoumustbetheooshowrestraint;
dontgoupstairssooften,dontencehimmorethanyouhelp.Inmatterslikethese,itsalwaysthemanwhotakestheactiverole,anditsuptothewomahelimits.Outside,whereyourefree,thingsarequitedifferent.Youseeotherboysandgirls,yougooutdoors,takepartinsportsandallkindsofactivities.Buthere,ifyethertoomudwanttogetaway,yout.Youseeeachothereveryhouroftheday-allthetime,infact.Becareful,Anne,anddonttakeittooseriously!
"Idont,Father,butPetersadetboy,aniceboy.”
"Yes,buthedoesnthavemuchstrengthofcharacter.Heeasilybeinflueodogood,butalsotodobad.Ihopeforhissakethathestaysgood,becausehesbasicallyagoodperson."
WetalkedsomemoreandagreedthatFatherwouldspeaktohimtoo.
Sundayafternoonereinthefrontattic,Peterasked,"HaveyoutalkedtoyourFatheryet,Anne?”
"Yes,"Ireplied,"Illtellyouallaboutit.Hedoesntthinkitswrong,buthesaysthathere,wherewereinsuchclosequarters,itcouldleadtoflicts.”
"Wevealreadyagreednottoquarrel,andIplantokeepmypromise.”
"Metoo,Peter.ButFatherdidntthinkwewereserious,hethoughtwewerejustfriends.Doyouthiillbe?”
"Yes,Ido.Howaboutyou?”
"Metoo.IalsotoldFatherthatItrustyou.Idotrustyou,Peter,justasmuchasIdoFather.AndIthinkyoureworthyofmytrust.Youare,arentyou?”
"Ihopeso."(Hewasveryshy,andblushing.)
"Ibelieveinyou,Peter,"Itinued."Ibelieveyouhaveagoodcharacterandthatyoullgetaheadinthisworld.”
Afterthatwetalkedaboutotherthings.LaterIsaid,"Ifweevergetoutofhere,Iknowyouwontgivemeahought.”
Hegotallfiredup."Thatsnottrue,Anne.Ohno,Iwoyoueventhinkthataboutme!”
Justthensomebodycalledus.
Fatherdidtalktohim,hetoldmeMonday."YourFatherthoughtourfriendshipmightturnintolove,"hesaid."ButItoldhimwedkeepourselvesundertrol.”
Fatherwaopgoingupstairssooften,butIdontwantto.NotjustbecauseIlikebeingwithPeter,butbecauseIvesaidItrusthim.Idotrusthim,andIwanttoproveittohim,butIllneverbeabletoifIstaydownstairsoutofdistrust.
No,Imgoing!
InthemeaheDusseldramahasbeenresolved.Saturdayeveningatdinnerhe
apologizediifulDutch.Mr.vanDaanwasimmediatelyreciled.Dusselmusthavespentalldaypractighisspeech.
Sunday,hisbirthday,passedwithouti.Wegavehimabottleofgoodwinefrom1919,thevanDaans(whoowgivetheirgiftafterall)presentedhimwithajarofpiccalilliandapackageofrazorblades,andMr.Kuglergavehimajaroflemonsyrup(tomakelemonade),Miepabook,LittleMartin,andBepaplareatedeveryooanegg.
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
WEDNESDAY,MAY3,1944
DearestKitty,
Firsttheweeklynews!Werehavingavacationfrompolitics.Theresnothing,andImeanabsolutelynothing,toreport.Imalsograduallystartingtobelievethattheinvasionwille.Afterall,theytlettheRussiansdoallthedirtywork;
actually,theRussiadoinganythingatthemomeher.
Mr.Kleimaheofficeeverymnow.HegotasforPetersdivan,soPeterwillhavetogettoworkreupholsteringit;Notsurprisingly,heisntatallinthemood.Mr.Kleimanalshtsomefleapowderforthecats.
HaveItoldyouthatourBochehasdisappeared?WehaventseenhidenorhairofhersiThursday.Shesprobablyalreadyincatheaven,whilesomeanimalloverhasturoatastydish.PerhapssomegirlwhoafforditwillbewearingacapmadeofBochesfur.Peterisheartbroken.
Forthelasttwoweekswevebeeinglunchateleven-thirtyonSaturdays;inthemswehavetomakedoofhotcereal.Startingtomorrowitllbelikethiseveryday;thatsavesusameal.Vegetablesarestillveryhardtoeby.Thisafternoonwehadrottenboiledlettuce.Ordinarylettuce,spinadboiledlet-tuce,thatsallthereis.Addtothatrottenpotatoes,andyouhaveamealfitforaking!
Ihadnthadmyperiodformorethantwomonths,butitfinallystartedlastSunday.
Despitethemessandbladithasedme.
Asyouodoubtimagiensayindespair,"Whatsthepointofthewar?
Why,oh,eoplelivetogetherpeacefully?Whyallthisdestru?"
Thequestionisuandable,butuptonownoonehaseupwithasatisfactoryanswer.WhyisEnglandmanufacturingbiggeraerairplanesandbombsandatthesametimeingoutnewhousesforrestru?Whyaremillioonthewareachday,whilenotapennyisavailableformedicalsce,artistsorthepoor?Whydopeoplehavetostarvewhenmountainsoffoodarerottingawayinotherpartsoftheworld?Oh,eoplesocrazy?
Idontbelievethewarissimplytheworkofpolitisandcapitalists.Ohno,theaniseverybitasguilty;otherwise,peopleandnationswouldhavere-belledlongago!Theresadestructiveurgeinpeople,theurgete,murderandkill.Anduntilallofhumanity,withoutexception,undergoesametamorphosis,warswilltiobewaged,ahingthathasbeencarefullybuiltup,cultivatedandgrownwillbecutdownaroyed,onlytostartallain!
Iveoftenbeendowninthedumps,butneverdesperate.Ilookuponourlifeinhidingasaingadventure,fullofdangerandromandeveryprivationasanamusingadditiontomydiary.Ivemadeupmymindtoleadadifferentlifefromirls,andnottobeeanordinaryhousewifelateron.WhatImexperienghereisagoodbeginningtoainglife,andthatsthereason--theonlyreason--whyIhavetolaughatthehumoroussideofthemostdangerousmoments.
Imyoungandhavemanyhiddenqualities;Imyoungandstrongandlivingthroughabigadventure;Imrightinthemiddleofitandtspendalldayplainingbecauseitsimpossibletohaveanyfun!Imblessedwithmanythings:happiness,acheerfuldispositionandstrength.EverydayIfeelmyselfmaturing,Ifeelliberationdrawingnear,Ifeelthebeautyofnatureandthegoodnessofthepeoplearoundme.EverydayIthinkwhatafasatingandamusingadvehisis!Withallthat,whyshouldIdespair?
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
FRIDAY,MAY5,1944
DearKitty,
Fathersunhappywithme.AfterourtalkonSundayhethoughtIdstopgoingupstairseveryevenihaveanyofthat"Knutscherej"*[*Neg]goingon.Itstandthatword.Talkingaboutitwasbadenough--whydoeshehavetomakemefeelbadtoo!Illhaveawordwithhimtoday.Margotgavemesomegoodadvice.
HeresmoreorlesswhatIdliketosay:
Ithinkyouexpeexplanationfromme,Father,soIllgiveyouone.Youredisap-pointedinme,youexpectedmorerestraintfromme,younodoubtwaoactthewayafourteen-year-oldissupposedto.Butthatswhereyourewrong!
Sincewevebeenhere,fromJuly1942untilafewweeksago,Ihaventhadaime.IfonlyyouknewhowmuchIusedtocryatnight,hoyanddespoIwas,howlonelyIfelt,youduandmywantingtogoupstairs!IvenowreachedthepointwhereIdohesupportofMotheroranyoneelse.Itdidnthappenht.IvestruggledlongandhardandshedmaobeeasindepeasIamnow.Youlaughandrefusetobelieveme,butIdontcare.IknowImanindepeperson,andIdontfeelIoattoyouformyas.ImonlytellingyouthisbecauseIdontwantyoutothinkImdoingthingsbehindyourback.ButtheresonlyonepersonImatableto,andthatsme.
WhenIwashavingproblems,everyone--andthatincludesyou--closedtheireyesandearsanddidnthelpme.Orary,allIevergotwereadmonitionsnottobesonoisy.Iwasnoisyonlytokeepmyselffrombeingmiserableallthetime.Iwasoverfidenttokeepfromhavingtolistentothevoisideme.Ivebeenputtingonanactforthelastyearandahalf,dayin,dayout.Iveneverplainedordroppedmymask,nothingofthekind,andnow...nowthebattleisover.Ivewon!Imindepe,inbothbodyandmind.Idontneedamotheranymore,andIveemergedfromthestruggleastrongerperson.
Nowthatitsover,nowthatIknowthebattlehasbeenwon,Iwanttogomyownway,tofollowthepaththatseemsrighttome.Dontthinkofmeasafourteen-year-old,sihesetroubleshavemademeolder;Iwretmyas,IllbehavethewayIthinkIshould!
Gentlepersuasionwontkeepmefromgoingupstairs.Youlleitherhavetoforbidit,ortrustmethroughthidthin.Whateveryoudo,justleavemealone!
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
SATURDAY,MAY6,1944
DearestKitty,
LastnightbeforediuckedtheletterIdwrittenintoFatherspocket.Acctot,hereaditandsetfortherestoftheevening.(Istairsdoingthedishes!)PoorPim,Imighthaveknownwhattheeffectofsuepistlewould
be.Hessosensitive!IimmediatelytoldPeternottoaskaionsorsayanythingmore.Pimssaidnothiomeaboutthematter.Ishegoingto?
Everythinghereismoreorlessbaal.WehardlybelievewhatJan,Mr.
KuglerandMr.Kleimantellusaboutthepridthepeopleoside;halfapoundofteacosts350.00guilders,halfapoundofcoffee80.00guilders,apoundofbutter35.00guilders,oneegg1.45guilders.Peoplearepaying14.00guildersanouncefariantobacco!Everyoradingontheblackmarket;everyerrandboyhassomethingtooffer.Thedeliveryboyfromthebakeryhassupplieduswithdarningthread-90tsforonemeaslyskein-themilkmangetholdofrationbooks,aakerdeliverscheese.Break-ins,murdersasaredailyoccurrences.Eventhepolidnightwataregettingino.Everyostoputfoodiomachs,andsincesalarieshavebeenfrozen,peoplehavehadtoresorttoswindling.Thepolicehavetheirhandsfulltryingtotrackdownthemanygirlsoffifteen,sixteeeenandolderwhoarereportedmissingeveryday.
IwanttotrytofinishmystoryaboutEllen,thefairy.Justforfun,IgiveittoFatheronhisbirthday,togetherwithallthechts.
Seeyoulater!(Actually,thatsnottherightphrase.IntheGermanprogrambroadcastfromEnglandtheyalwaysclosewith"Aufwiederhoren."SoIguessIshouldsay,"Untilwewriteagain.")
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
SUNDAYM,MAY7,1944
DearestKitty,
FatherandIhadalongtalkyesterdayafternoon.Icriedmyeyesout,andhecriedtoo.Doyouknowwhathesaidtome,Kitty?
"Ivereceivedmaersinmylifetime,butnoneashurtfulasthis.You,whohavehadsomuchlovefromyourparents.You,whoseparentshavealwaysbeeohelpyou,whohavealwaysdefendedyou,nomatterwhat.Youtalkofnothavingtoattousforyouras!Youfeelyouvebeenwrongedaoyourowndevio,Anne,youvedoneusagreatinjustice!
"Perhapsyoudidthatway,butthatswhatyouwrote.No,Anne,wehavedohingtodeservesuchareproach!"
Oh,Ivefailedmiserably.ThisistheworstthingIveeverdoneiirelife.Iusedmytearstoshowoff,tomakemyselfseemimportantsohedrespectme.Ivecertainlyhadmyshareofunhappiness,ahingIsaidaboutMotheristrue.ButtoaccusePim,whossogoodandwhosdohingforme-no,thatwastoocruelforwords.
Itsgoodthatsomebodyhasfinallycutmedowntosize,hasbrokenmypride,becauseIvebeenfartoosmug.NoteverythingMistressAnnedoesisgood!Any-onewhodeliberatelycausessuchpaintosomeoheysaytheyloveisdespicable,thelowestofthelow!
WhatImmostashamedofisthewayFatherhasfivenme;hesaidhesgoingtothrowtheletteriove,andhesbeingsoomenow,asifheweretheonewhoddonesomethingwrong.Well,Anne,youstillhavealottolearn.Itstimeyoumadeabeginning,in-steadoflookingdownatothersandalwaysgiviheblame!
Iveknownalotofsorrow,butwhohasntatmyage?Ivebeenputtingonanact,butwashardlyevenawareofit.Ivefeltlonely,butneverdesperate!NotlikeFather,whoonoutintothestreetwithaknifesohecouldputaoitall.Ivenevergofar.
Ishouldbedeeplyashamedofmyself,andIam.Whatsdobeuatleastyoukeepitfromhappeningagain.Idliketostartallover,andthatshouldntbedifficult,nowthatIhavePeter.Withhimsuppme,IknowIdoit!Imnotaloneanymore.Helovesme,Ilovehim,Ihavemybooks,mywritingandmydiary.Imnotallthatugly,orthatstupid,Ihaveasunnydisposition,andIwanttodevelopagoodcharacter!
Yes,Anne,youknewfullwellthatyourletterwasunkindanduyouwereactuallyproudofit!IlltakeFatherasmyexampleonceagain,andIwillimprovemyself.
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
MONDAY,MAY8,1944
DearestKitty,
HaveIevertoldyouanythingaboutourfamily?IdontthinkIhave,soletmebegin.
FatherwasborninFrankfurtamMaintoverywealthyparents:MichaelFrankowned
abankandbecameamillionaire,andAliceSternsparentswerepromiao-do.MichaelFrankdidntstartoutrich;hewasaself-mademan.InhisyouthFatherledthelifeofarisson.Partieseveryweek,balls,bas,beautifulgirls,waltzing,dinners,ahugehouse,etc.AfterGrandpadied,mostofthemoneywaslost,andaftertheGreatWarandinflationtherewasnothiall.Upuntilthewartherewerestillquiteafewrichrelatives.SoFatherwasextremelywell-bred,aolaughyesterdaybecauseforthefirsttimeinhisfifty-fiveyears,hescrapedoutthefryingpanatthetable.
Mothersfamilywasntaswealthy,butstillfairlywell-off,andwevelistenedopenmouthedtostoriesofprivateballs,dinnersandepartieswith250guests.
Werefarfromriow,butIvepinnedallmyhopesohewar.Iassureyou,ImnotsosetonabeoislifeasMotherandMargot.IdliketospendayearinParisandLondonlearningthelanguagesandstudyingarthistory.parethatwithMargot,whowantstonursenewbornsiiillhavevisionseousdressesandfasatingpeople.AsIvetoldyoumanytimesbefore,Iwanttoseetheworldanddoallkindsofexgthings,andalittlemoneywonthurt!
ThismMieptoldusabouthercousinseparty,whichshewenttoonSaturday.Thecousinsparentsareridthegroomsareevenricher.Miepmadeourmouthswatertellingusaboutthefoodthatwasserved:vegetablesoupwithmeatballs,cheese,rollswithslicedmeat,horsdoeuvresmadewitheggsandroastbeef,rollswithcheese,genoise,wineandcigarettes,andyoucouldeatasmuchasyouwanted.
Miepdranktensappsandsmokedthreecigarettes--couldthisbeourtemperanceadvocate?IfMiepdrankallthose,Iwonderhowmanyherspousemaossdown?Everyohepartywasalittletipsy,ofcourse.TherewerealsotwoofficersfromtheHomicideSquad,whotookphotographsoftheweddingcouple.YouseewereneverfarfromMiepsthoughts,sinceshepromptlyheirnamesandaddressesihingshouldhappenandweneededtactswithgoodDutchpeople.
Ourmouthswerewateringsomuch.We,whodhadnothingbuttwospoonfulsofhotcerealforbreakfastandwereabsolutelyfamished;we,whogetnothingbuthalf-cookedspinach(forthevitamins!)androttenpota-toesdayafterday;we,whofillouremptystomachswithnothingbutboiledlettuce,rawlettuce,spinach,spinadmorespinach.MaybewellendupbeingasstrongasPopeye,thoughuptonowIveseennosignofit!
IfMiephadtakenusalongtotheparty,therewouldnthavebeenanyrollsleftoverfortheuests.Ifwedbeenthere,wedhavesnatchedupeverythinginsight,includingthefurniture.Itellyou,wewerepracticallypullingthewhtoutofhermouth.Weweregatheredaroundherasifwedneverinallourlivesheardof”
deliciousfantpeople!Andthesearethegranddaughtersofthedistinguishedmillioheworldisacrazyplace!
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
TUESDAY,MAY9,1944
DearestKitty,
IvefinishedmystoryaboutEllen,thefairy.Ivecopieditoutoepaper,decorateditwithredinkahepagestogether.Thewholethinglooksquitepretty,butIdontknowifitsenoughofabirthdaypresent.MargotandMotherhavebothwrittenpoems.
Mr.KuglercameupstairsthisafternoonwiththehatstartingMonday,Mrs.
Brokswouldliketospendtwohoursintheofficeeveryafternoon.Justimagiheofficestaffwontbeabletoeupstairs,thepotatoestbedelivered,Bepwoherdinner,wetgotothebathroom,wewontbeabletomoveandallsortsofotherinveniences!Weproposedavarietyofwaystogetridofher.Mr.vanDaanthoughtagoodlaxativeinhercoffeemightdothetrick."No,"Mr.Kleimananswered,"pleasedont,orwellheroffthe.
Aroaroflaughter."The?"Mrs.vanD.asked."Whatdoesthatmean?"Anexplanationwasgiven."Isitallrighttousethatword?"sheaskedinperfeoce."Justimagine,"Bepgiggled,"thereyouareshoppingatTheBijenkorfandyouaskthewaytothe.Theywouldntevenknowwhatyouweretalkingabout!”
Dusselnowsitsonthe","toborrowtheexpression,everydayattwelve-thirtyo.ThisafternoonIboldlytookapieceofpinkpaperandwrote:
Mr.DusselsToiletTimetableMsfrom7:15to7:30A.M.
Afternoonsafter1P.M.
Otherwise,onlyasneeded!
Itackedthistothegreenbathroomdoorwhilehewasstillinside.ImightwellhaveaddedTransgressorswillbesubjecttofi!"Becauseourbathroombelockedfromboththeiheoutside.
Mr.vanDaanslatestjoke:
AfteraBiblelessonaboutAdamahirteen-year-oldboyaskedhisfather,"Tellme,Father,howdidIgetborn?”
"Well,"thefatherreplied,"thestorkpluckedyououtoftheo,setyoudowninMothersbedandbitherintheleg,hard.Itbledsomuchshehadtostayinbedforaweek.”
Notfullysatisfied,theboywenttohismother."Tellme,Mother,"heasked,"howdidyougetbornandhowdidIgetborn?”
Hismothertoldhimtheverysamestory.Finally,hopingtohearthefinepoints,hewenttohisgrandfather."Tellme,Grandfather,"hesaid,"howdidyougetbornandhowdidyhtergetborn?"Andforthethirdtimehewastoldexactlythesamestory.
Thatnighthewroteinhisdiary:"Aftercarefulinquiry,Imustcludethattherehasbeennosexualintercourseinourfamilyforthelastthreegeions!”
Istillhaveworktodo;itsalreadythreeoclock.
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
PS.Sihiiohenewinglady,Ijustwanttoshesmarried,sixtyyearsoldandhardofhearing!Veryve,inviewofalltheeightpeopleinhidingarecapableofmak-ing.
Oh,Kit,itssuchlovelyweather.IfonlyIcouldgooutside!
WEDNESDAY,MAY10,1944
DearestKitty,
WeweresittingiicyesterdayafternoonourFrenchwhensuddenlyIheardthesplatterofwaterbehindme.IaskedPeterwhatitmightbe.Withoutpausingtoreply,hedasheduptotheloft-theseofthedisaster--andshoved
Mouschi,whowassquattingbesidehersoggylitterbox,backthtplace.Thiswasfollowedbyshoutsandsqueals,andthenMouschi,whobythattimehadfinishedpeeing,tookoffdownstairs.Insearethingsimilartoherbox,Mouschihadfoundherselfapileofwoodshavings,rightoveracrathefloor.Thepuddleimmediatelytrickleddowntotheattid,asluckwouldhaveit,landedinaothepotatobarrel.Thegwasdripping,andsiheatticfloorhasalsogotitsshareofcracks,littleyellowdropswereleakingthroughtheceilingandontothediningtable,betileofstogsandbooks.
Iwasdoubledupwithlaughter,itwassuchafunnysight.TherewasMouschicrouchedunderachair,Peterarmedwithwater,powderedbleadacloth,andMr.
vanDaantryingtocalmeveryonedown.Theroomwassoohts,butitsawell-knownfactthatcatpuddlesstinktohighheaveatoesprovedthatalltoowell,asdidthewoodshavings,whichFathercollectedinabucketandbroughtdownstairstoburn.
PoorMouschi!Howwereyoutoknowitsimpossibletogetpeatforyourbox?
AHURSDAY,MAY11,1944
DearestKitty,
Anewsketakeyoulaugh:
Petershairhadtobecut,andasusualhismotherwastobethehairdresser.Atsevey-fivePetervaohisroom,andreappearedatthestrokeofseven-thirty,strippeddowntohisblueswimmingtrunksandapairoftennisshoes.
"Areyouing?"heaskedhismother.
"Yes,IllbeupinamiItfindthescissors!”
Peterhelpedherlook,rummagingaroundinhereticsdrawer."Dontmakesuchamess,Peter,"shegrumbled.
IdidntcatchPetersreply,butitmusthavebeeni,becauseshecuffedhimonthearm.Hecuffedherback,shepunchedhimwithallhermight,aerpulledhisarmawaywithalookofmockhorroronhisface."eon,oldgirl!"
Mrs.vanD.stayedput.Petergrabbedherbythewristsandpulledherallaroundtheroom.Shelaughed,cried,scoldedandkicked,butnothinghelped.Peterledhisprisonerasfarastheatticstairs,wherehewasobligedtoletgoofher.Mrs.vanD.
camebacktotheroomandcollapsedintoachairwithaloudsigh.
"DieEnifu"hruter,".Ijoked.[*TheAbduother,apossiblerefereoMozartsoperaTheAbdufromtheSeraglio.]"Yes,buthehurtme.”
Iwenttohavealookandcooledherhot,redwristswithwater.Peter,stillbythestairsandgrowingimpa-tientagain,strodeintotheroomwithhisbeltinhishand,likealiontamer.Mrs.vanD.didntmove,butstayedbyherwritingdesk,lookingforahandkerchief."Youvegottoapologizefirst.”
"Allright,Iherebyoffermyapologies,butonlybecauseifIdont,wellbeheretillmidnight.”
Mrs.vanD.hadtolaughinspiteofherself.Shegotupaowardthedoor,whereshefeltobligedtogiveusanexplanation.(ByusImeanFather,Motherandme;wewerebusydoingthedishes.)"Hewasntlikethisathome,"shesaid."Idhavebeltedhimsohardhedhavegoneflyingdowairs[!].Hesneverbeensoihisisntthefirsttimehesdeservedagoodhiding.Thatswhatyougetwithamodernupbringing,modernchildren.Idneverhavegrabbedmymotherlikethat.Didyoutreatyourmotherthatway,Mr.Frank?"Shewasveryupset,pagbadforth,sayingwhatevercameintoherhead,aillhadntgoairs.
Finally,atlonglast,shemadeherexit.
Lessthanfivemiershestormedbackdowairs,withhercheeksallpuffedout,andflungheraprononachair.WhenIaskedifshewasthrough,sherepliedthatshewasgoingdownstairs.Shetoredowairslikeatornado,probablystraightintothearmsofherPutti.
Shedidnteupagainu,thistimewithherhusbaerwasdraggedfromtheattic,givenamercilessscoldingandshoweredwithabuse:ill-manneredbrat,no-goodbum,badexample,Ahis,Margotthat,Icouldherest.
Everythiohavecalmeddownagaintoday!
Yours,Anne
M.Frank
P.S.TuesdayandWednesdayeveningourbelovedQueenaddressedthetry.Shestakingavacationsoshellbeingoodhealthforherreturntotheherlands.
Sheusedwordslike"soon,whenImbaHolland,""aswiftliberation,""heroism”
and"heavyburdens.”
ThiswasfollowedbyaspeechbyPrimeMinisterGerbrandy.HehassuchasqueakylittlechildsvoicethatMotherinstinctivelysaid,"Oooh."Aclergyman,whomusthaveborrowedhisvoir.Edel,cludedbyaskingGodtotakecareoftheJews,allthoseintrationcampsandprisonsandeveryonewinGermany.
THURSDAY,MAY11,1944
DearestKitty,
SinceIveleftmyentire"junkbox"--includingmyfountainpen--upstairsandImnotallowedtodisturbthegrown-upsduringtheirnaptime(untiltwo-thirty),youllhavetomakedowithaletterinpencil.
Imterriblybusyatthemoment,andstramaysound,Idonthaveenoughtimetogetthroughmypileofwork.ShallItellyoubrieflywhatIvegottodo?Wellthen,beforetomorrowIhavetofinishreadingthefirstvolumeofabiographyofGalileoGalilei,sihastobereturhelibrary.Istartedreadingityesterdayandhavegottenuptopage220outof320pages,soIllma.weekIhavetoreadPalestiheCross-roadsandthesedvolumeofGalilei.Besidesthat,IfihefirstvolumeofabiographyofEmperorCharlesVyesterday,andIstillhavetoworkoutthemanygenealogicalchartsIvecollectedaesIvetaken.
Ihavethreepagesnwordsfrommyvariousbooks,allofwhichhavetobewrittendown,memorizedandreadaloud.Numberfour:mymoviestarsareinaterribledisarrayandaredyingtobestraighte,butsilltakeseveraldaystodothatandProfessorAnneis,asshesalreadysaid,uptoherearsinwork,theyllhavetoputupwiththechaosawhilelohentherereTheseus,Oedipus,Peleus,Orpheus,JasonandHerculesallwaitingtobeuntangled,siheirvariousdeedsarerunningcrisscrossthroughmymindlikemul-ticoloredthreadsinadress.MyronandPhidiasarealsentlyinneedofattention,orelseIl松语文学www.16sy.coM免费小说阅读
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