CHAPTER 32
Specklovedtobebymovingwater.Mystromemoryisofheranimatedbythecurrehetictotheflow.Isawheronce,yearsago,strippedtotheskin,sittingwithherlegstuckedbehher,asthewaterrolledaroundherwaistandthesunshinecaressedhershoulders.Undernormalcircumstances,Iwouldhavejumpedandsplashedinthecreekwithher,butstruckbythegraceofhernedlimbs,thetoursofherface,Icouldnotmove.Onanotheroccasiohetownsfolkshotofffireworksinthenight,wewatchedtheexplosionsupriver,andsheseemedmoreentedbythewaterflowthanbytheloudflinthesky.Whilethepeoplelookedup,shewatchedthelightreflegontheripplesandthesparksastheyhissedonthesurface.Fromthebeginning,Ihadguessedwhereshehadgoneandwhy,butIdidnotactuponthatintuitionbecauseofafuallackofce.Thesamefearsthathadpreventedmefromcrossingattheriverbendalsomademebreakofftheseardebap.Ishouldhavefollowedthewaters.
Thepathtothelibraryneverseemedaslongandforebodingasonthenightofmyfirstreturn.Thewayhadgedsincearted.Theforestthinnedarounditsedge,andrustys,bottles,andotherrefuselitteredthebrush.Noneofushadvisitedintheyearssincesheleft.Bookslaywherewehadleftthem,thoughmicehadnibbledthemarginsofmypapers,lefttheirsourolddleholdersandcoffeemugs.HerShakespearewaslousywithsilverfish.Stevenshadswollenwithdampness.Bydimdlelight,Ispentthenightrestorder,pullingdowncobwebs,shooingcrickets,lingeringoverwhatshehadonceheldinherhands.Ifellasleepediyblahathadlongagolostherst.
Vibrationsaboveannouhearrival.Thelibrariansstartedtheirday,joistscreakinguheirweightaernsoftheirroutines.Icouldpicturetheirgoings-on:chegin,sayinghello,settlingattheirstations.Anhourorsopassedbeforethedoorsopenedandthehumansshufflediherhythmfeltnormal,Ibegantowork.Athinfilmofdustcoveredmypapers,andIspentmostofthatfirstdayreadisandpieorder,tyingtheloosepageswithentriesinMessjournal.Somuchhadbeebehind,lost,fotten,andburiedafterwehadbeendrivenawaythefirsttime.Reducedtoashortpile,thewordsdotedtimespassagewithdeepgapsandyawningsilences.Verylittleexisted,forinstance,fromtheearlydaysofmyarrival—onlyafewcrudedrawingsandpathetiotes.Yearshadgonebywithoutmention.Afterreviewingallthefiles,Iuoodthelongchoreahead.
Whenthelibrariafortheevening,Ipoppedoperapdoorunderhechildreion.Uherforays,Ihadnodesiretopickoutanewbook,but,rather,tostealnewwritingsupplies.Behindtheheadlibrariansdesklaythetreasure:fivelongyellowpadsandenoughpenstolasttherestofmylife.Tointroduceaminorintrigue,IalsoreshelvedtheWallaceStevensthathadbeenmissing.
WordsspilledfromthepenandIwroteuntilmyhandcrampedandpaiheend,thenightthatSpeckleft,becamethebeginning.Fromthere,thestorymovedbackwardtothepointwhereIrealizedthatIhadfallenihher.Awholeswathoftheinalmanuscript,whichisthankfullygone,wasgivehephysicaltensionsofbeingagrownmaninayoungboysbhtinthemiddleofasentendesire,Istopped.Whatifshewaogowithher?Iwouldhavepleadedforhertostay,saidthatIlackedthecetorunaway.Yetatraryideapulledatmysce.Perhapssheendedformetofindout.ShehadrunawaybecauseofmeandknewallalongthatIlovedher.IputdownmypenandwishedSpeckweretheretotalkwithme,toansweralltheunknowables.
Theseobsessionscurledlikeparasitesthroughmybrain,andItossedandturhehardfloor.Iwokeupinthenightandstartedwritingonapad,determioridmymindofitsdarkestthoughts.Thehourspassedanddaysdriftedootheother.Forthesixmonths,Idividedmyselfbetweenthecampandthelibrary,tryingtopiecetogetherthestoryofmylifetogivetoSpeck.Ourwinterhibernationslowedmyprogress.IgrewtiredinDecemberauntilMarch.BeforeIcouldgobacktothebook,thebookcamebae.
Solemn-eyedLuchógandSmaolachapproaasIchedafarlofoatsanddraihedregsfromacupoftea.Withgreatdeliberatioohersideofme,cross-legged,settlinginforalongtalk.Luchógfiddledwithanewshootofryepokingthroughtheoldleaves,andSmaolachlookedoff,pretendingtostudytheplayoflightthroughthebranches.
"Go,lads.What’sonyourminds?"
"Wevebeentothelibrary,"saidSmaolach.
"Haventgohereinages,"saidLuchóg.
"Weknowwhatyouvebeenupto"
"Readthestoryofyourlife."
Smaolachturnedhisgazetowardmine."Ahuhousandapologies,butwehadtoknow."
"Whogaveyoutheright?"Iasked.
Theyturheirfacesawayfromme,andIdidnotknowwheretolook.
"Youvegotafewstorieswrong,"Luchógsaid."MayIaskwhyyouwrotethisbook?Towhomisitaddressed?"
"WhatdidIgetwrong?"
"Myuandingisthatanauthordoesntwriteabookwithouthavingoneormorereadersinmind,"Luchógsaid."Oghthetimeandefforttobetheonlyreaderofyourownbook.Eventhediaristexpectsthelocktobepicked."
Smaolachpulledathis,asifdeepinthought."Itwouldbeabigmistake,Ithink,towriteabookthatnoonewouldeverread."
"Youarequiteright,oldfriend.Ihaveattimeswonderedwhytheartistdarestsomethioaworldwhereeverythinghasbeendoneandwherealltheanswersarequitewellknown."
Istoodandbroketheplaheirinquisition."Wouldyoupleasetellme,"Ihollered,"whatiswrongwiththebook?"
"Imafraiditsyourfather,"saidLuchóg.
"Myfather,whatabouthim?Hassomethinghappeohim?"
"Hesnotwhoyouthinkheis."
"Whatmyfrieosayisthatthemanyouthinkofasyourfatherisnotyourfatheratall.Thatmanisanotherman."
"ewithus,"saidLuchóg.
Aswewoundaloh,Itriedtountahemanyimplicationsoftheirinvasionintomybook.First,theyhadalwaysknownIwasHenryDay,andnowtheyknewIkheyhadreadofmyfeelingsforSpedsurelyguessedIwaswritingtoher.TheyknewhowIfeltaboutthem,aswell.Fortuheycameacrossasgenerallysympatheticcharacters,abitetric,true,butsteadfastalliesinmyadveheirlineofquestioningposedanintriguing,however,asIhadnotthoughtaheadtohowImightactuallygetabooktoSpeoretothepoint,aboutthereasonsbehindmydesiretowriteitalldown.SmaoladLuchóg,aheadorail,hadlivedinthesewoodsfordecadesandsailedthrougheternitywithoutthesamecaresortheowritedownandmakeseall.Theywrotenobooks,paihingonthewalls,danonewdatheylivedinpeadharmonywiththenaturalworld.WhywasntIliketheothers?
Atsu,westeppedoutofcoverandwalkeddownpastthechurchtoascatteringofgravesinagreenspaceadjattothecemeteryenclosedbyastonewall.Ihadbeenthereoncebefore,manyyearsago,thinkingitashortcutbacktosafety,orperhapsmerelyagoodhidingplace.Weslippedbetweentheironbarsintoatranquil,rowngarden.Manyoftheinscriptionsooneswereweatheredandfaded,asthetenantshadlaiheirvanishingnamesformanyyears.Myfriendstookmeonawindingpathbetweenthegraves,aoppedshortamongthememorialsandweeds.Smaolachwalkedmetoaplotandshowedmethestone:WILLIAMDAY,1917-1962.Ikdownonthegrass,ranmyfingeralongthegroovesofletters,sideredthenumbers."pened?"
Luchógspokesoftly."Wehavenoidea,HenryDay."
"Ihavehatnameinawhile."
Smaolachlaidhishanduponmyshoulder."IstillpreferAniday.Youareoneofus."
"Howlonghaveyouknown?"
"Wethoughtyoushouldknowforthetruthofyourbook.Youdidntseeyourfatherthatnightwelefttheoldcamp."
"Andyouuand,"Luchógsaid,"thatthemaninthenewhousewiththebabyotbeyourfather."
Isatdownandleanedagainstthemarkertosavemyselffromfainting.Theywereright,ofcourse.Bymydar,fourteenyearshadpassedsiheenddateonthatgravestone.Ifhehaddiedthatlongago,WilliamDaycouldnotbewhoIthoughthewas,andthatmanwasnotWilliamDaybuthisdouble.Iwoomyselfhowsuchathingcouldbepossible.Luchógopenedhispouch,rolledacigarette,andcalmlysmokeditamidtheheadstohestarscameouttodefihesky—howfaraway,howlongago?Myfriendsseemedonthevergeofrevealingadditios,buttheysaidnothing,sothatImightfigureitoutformyself.
"Letusawaythen,lads,"Smaolachsaid,"andthinkonthistomorrow."
tthegateattheerandtrekkedhome,ourversatitosmallermistakesinmyownstory.Mostoftheirsuggestionsescapedscrutinybecausemymindwandereddownlong-edlanes.Speckhadtoldmewhatsheremembered,butmuchremainedmysterious.Mymotherfadedinandoutofview,thoughIcouldnowseequiteclearlythefacetoftwinbabysisters.Myfatherwasanearlytotalvoid.Lifeexistedbeforethislife,andIhadnotsuffitlydraggedtheriverofmysubscious.Latethatnight,whiletheothersslept,Isatawakeinmyburrow.TheimageofOscarLovecrystallizedbeforeme.entmonthsiigatingthatboy,findingoutinexcruciatiailthenatureandshapeofhislife,hisfamilyhistory,hishabitsofmind—alltoassistIgelinthege.IfweknewOscarsowell,thehersmusthaveknownmyhistory,infinitelybetterthamyself.NowthatIkrueherewasnolongeranyreasonforthemtohidethetruth.Theyhadspiredtohelpmefet,andnowtheycouldhelpmeremember.IcrawledoutofmyholeandwalkedovertoLuchógsspot,onlytofinditvat.IntheadjatburrorappedinChavisorysarms,andforamomeatedtodisturbtheirpeace.
"Luch,"Iwhispered.Heblinked.",andtellmeastory."
"Aniday,fortheloveof—tyouseeImsleeping?"
"Ioknow."
Bythistime,shewasstirringaswell.Iwaiteduntiltheydisentahemselves,andherosetoeyelevel."Whatisit?"hedemanded.
"YouhavetotellmeeverythingyourememberaboutHenryDay."
HeyawnedandlookedatChavisorycurledintothefetalposition&quhtnow,Imgoingbacktobed.Askmeagaininthem,andIllhelpwithyourbook-writing.Butnow,tomypillowandtomydreams."
IwokeSmaoladBékaandOnionswiththesamerequestandutoffbyeamuchthesameway.Despitemyexcitement,Idrewnothingbuttiredglaresatbreakfastthem,andonlyafterthewholehadtheirfilldidIdareaskagain.
"Iamwritingabook,"Iannounced,"aboutHenryDayIknowthebroadstorythatSpeckgavemebeforesheleft,andnowIneedyoutofilliails.PretendImabouttomakethege,andgivemethereportonHenryDay."
"Oh,Irememberyou,"Onionsbegan."Youwereababyfoundlinginthewoods.Yourmotheredyouinswaddlingclothesandlaidyouatthegreyhoundsshrine."
"No,no,no,"saidBéka."Youaremistaken.TheinalHenryDaywasnotaHenryatall,butowoidenticaltwingirls,ElspethandMaribel."
"Youareb,"saidChavisory."Hewasaboy,acute,smartboywholivedinahouseatthetipoftheforestwithhismotherandfatherandtwobabytwinsisters."
"Thatsright,"saidLuchóg."MaryandElizabeth.Twolittlecurly-tops,fataslambchops."
"Youcouldnthavebeehaornine,"saidChavisory.
"Seven,"saidSmaolach."Hewassevenwhenwenabbedhim."
"Areyousure?"askedOnions."Couldasworehewasjustababy."
Theversationtihisfashionfortherestoftheday,intestedbitesofinformation,ahattheendofthediscussionwasthedistantcousinofthetruthatthebeginning.Allthroughthesummerandintothefall,Ipepperedthemseparatelyandtogetherwithmyqueries.Sometimesananswer,whenbihmyprodigalmemoryorthevisualcueofadrawingorapieceofwritiedafamybrain.Slowly,overtime,apatternemerged,andmychildhoodreturome.Butohingremainedamystery.
Beforethelongsleepofwinter,Iwentoff,iuponclimbingthehighestpeakinthehillssurroundingthevalley.Thetreeshadshedtheirleavesandraisednakedarmstothegraysky.Totheeast,thecitylookedliketoybuildingblocks.Offtothesouthlaythepactvillagetwobytheriver.I,theriverbendandthebigtrybeyond.Tothenorth,raggedforest,afarmortwohackedoutfromthetreesandstone.Isatonthemountaintopandread,dreamtatnightoftwoSpecks,twoDays,whatweare,ouldbe.Saveforaflaskofwater,Ifastedandreflecteduponthepuzzleofexistehethirdday,mymindclearedaheanswer.Ifthemanearedasmyfatherwasnotmyfather,whowashe?WhomdidImeeti?WhowasthemanbythecreekonthenightwelostbothIgelandOscarLove?Theonewhochasedusthroughthekitdoor?Helookedlikemyfather.Adeer,startledbythesnapofmyhead,boltedthroughthefallenleaves.Abirdcriedohenotelihendisappeared.Thecloudsrolledonandrevealedthepalesun.Whohadtakenmyplacewheolemeaway?
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Thepathtothelibraryneverseemedaslongandforebodingasonthenightofmyfirstreturn.Thewayhadgedsincearted.Theforestthinnedarounditsedge,andrustys,bottles,andotherrefuselitteredthebrush.Noneofushadvisitedintheyearssincesheleft.Bookslaywherewehadleftthem,thoughmicehadnibbledthemarginsofmypapers,lefttheirsourolddleholdersandcoffeemugs.HerShakespearewaslousywithsilverfish.Stevenshadswollenwithdampness.Bydimdlelight,Ispentthenightrestorder,pullingdowncobwebs,shooingcrickets,lingeringoverwhatshehadonceheldinherhands.Ifellasleepediyblahathadlongagolostherst.
Vibrationsaboveannouhearrival.Thelibrariansstartedtheirday,joistscreakinguheirweightaernsoftheirroutines.Icouldpicturetheirgoings-on:chegin,sayinghello,settlingattheirstations.Anhourorsopassedbeforethedoorsopenedandthehumansshufflediherhythmfeltnormal,Ibegantowork.Athinfilmofdustcoveredmypapers,andIspentmostofthatfirstdayreadisandpieorder,tyingtheloosepageswithentriesinMessjournal.Somuchhadbeebehind,lost,fotten,andburiedafterwehadbeendrivenawaythefirsttime.Reducedtoashortpile,thewordsdotedtimespassagewithdeepgapsandyawningsilences.Verylittleexisted,forinstance,fromtheearlydaysofmyarrival—onlyafewcrudedrawingsandpathetiotes.Yearshadgonebywithoutmention.Afterreviewingallthefiles,Iuoodthelongchoreahead.
Whenthelibrariafortheevening,Ipoppedoperapdoorunderhechildreion.Uherforays,Ihadnodesiretopickoutanewbook,but,rather,tostealnewwritingsupplies.Behindtheheadlibrariansdesklaythetreasure:fivelongyellowpadsandenoughpenstolasttherestofmylife.Tointroduceaminorintrigue,IalsoreshelvedtheWallaceStevensthathadbeenmissing.
WordsspilledfromthepenandIwroteuntilmyhandcrampedandpaiheend,thenightthatSpeckleft,becamethebeginning.Fromthere,thestorymovedbackwardtothepointwhereIrealizedthatIhadfallenihher.Awholeswathoftheinalmanuscript,whichisthankfullygone,wasgivehephysicaltensionsofbeingagrownmaninayoungboysbhtinthemiddleofasentendesire,Istopped.Whatifshewaogowithher?Iwouldhavepleadedforhertostay,saidthatIlackedthecetorunaway.Yetatraryideapulledatmysce.Perhapssheendedformetofindout.ShehadrunawaybecauseofmeandknewallalongthatIlovedher.IputdownmypenandwishedSpeckweretheretotalkwithme,toansweralltheunknowables.
Theseobsessionscurledlikeparasitesthroughmybrain,andItossedandturhehardfloor.Iwokeupinthenightandstartedwritingonapad,determioridmymindofitsdarkestthoughts.Thehourspassedanddaysdriftedootheother.Forthesixmonths,Idividedmyselfbetweenthecampandthelibrary,tryingtopiecetogetherthestoryofmylifetogivetoSpeck.Ourwinterhibernationslowedmyprogress.IgrewtiredinDecemberauntilMarch.BeforeIcouldgobacktothebook,thebookcamebae.
Solemn-eyedLuchógandSmaolachapproaasIchedafarlofoatsanddraihedregsfromacupoftea.Withgreatdeliberatioohersideofme,cross-legged,settlinginforalongtalk.Luchógfiddledwithanewshootofryepokingthroughtheoldleaves,andSmaolachlookedoff,pretendingtostudytheplayoflightthroughthebranches.
"Go,lads.What’sonyourminds?"
"Wevebeentothelibrary,"saidSmaolach.
"Haventgohereinages,"saidLuchóg.
"Weknowwhatyouvebeenupto"
"Readthestoryofyourlife."
Smaolachturnedhisgazetowardmine."Ahuhousandapologies,butwehadtoknow."
"Whogaveyoutheright?"Iasked.
Theyturheirfacesawayfromme,andIdidnotknowwheretolook.
"Youvegotafewstorieswrong,"Luchógsaid."MayIaskwhyyouwrotethisbook?Towhomisitaddressed?"
"WhatdidIgetwrong?"
"Myuandingisthatanauthordoesntwriteabookwithouthavingoneormorereadersinmind,"Luchógsaid."Oghthetimeandefforttobetheonlyreaderofyourownbook.Eventhediaristexpectsthelocktobepicked."
Smaolachpulledathis,asifdeepinthought."Itwouldbeabigmistake,Ithink,towriteabookthatnoonewouldeverread."
"Youarequiteright,oldfriend.Ihaveattimeswonderedwhytheartistdarestsomethioaworldwhereeverythinghasbeendoneandwherealltheanswersarequitewellknown."
Istoodandbroketheplaheirinquisition."Wouldyoupleasetellme,"Ihollered,"whatiswrongwiththebook?"
"Imafraiditsyourfather,"saidLuchóg.
"Myfather,whatabouthim?Hassomethinghappeohim?"
"Hesnotwhoyouthinkheis."
"Whatmyfrieosayisthatthemanyouthinkofasyourfatherisnotyourfatheratall.Thatmanisanotherman."
"ewithus,"saidLuchóg.
Aswewoundaloh,Itriedtountahemanyimplicationsoftheirinvasionintomybook.First,theyhadalwaysknownIwasHenryDay,andnowtheyknewIkheyhadreadofmyfeelingsforSpedsurelyguessedIwaswritingtoher.TheyknewhowIfeltaboutthem,aswell.Fortuheycameacrossasgenerallysympatheticcharacters,abitetric,true,butsteadfastalliesinmyadveheirlineofquestioningposedanintriguing,however,asIhadnotthoughtaheadtohowImightactuallygetabooktoSpeoretothepoint,aboutthereasonsbehindmydesiretowriteitalldown.SmaoladLuchóg,aheadorail,hadlivedinthesewoodsfordecadesandsailedthrougheternitywithoutthesamecaresortheowritedownandmakeseall.Theywrotenobooks,paihingonthewalls,danonewdatheylivedinpeadharmonywiththenaturalworld.WhywasntIliketheothers?
Atsu,westeppedoutofcoverandwalkeddownpastthechurchtoascatteringofgravesinagreenspaceadjattothecemeteryenclosedbyastonewall.Ihadbeenthereoncebefore,manyyearsago,thinkingitashortcutbacktosafety,orperhapsmerelyagoodhidingplace.Weslippedbetweentheironbarsintoatranquil,rowngarden.Manyoftheinscriptionsooneswereweatheredandfaded,asthetenantshadlaiheirvanishingnamesformanyyears.Myfriendstookmeonawindingpathbetweenthegraves,aoppedshortamongthememorialsandweeds.Smaolachwalkedmetoaplotandshowedmethestone:WILLIAMDAY,1917-1962.Ikdownonthegrass,ranmyfingeralongthegroovesofletters,sideredthenumbers."pened?"
Luchógspokesoftly."Wehavenoidea,HenryDay."
"Ihavehatnameinawhile."
Smaolachlaidhishanduponmyshoulder."IstillpreferAniday.Youareoneofus."
"Howlonghaveyouknown?"
"Wethoughtyoushouldknowforthetruthofyourbook.Youdidntseeyourfatherthatnightwelefttheoldcamp."
"Andyouuand,"Luchógsaid,"thatthemaninthenewhousewiththebabyotbeyourfather."
Isatdownandleanedagainstthemarkertosavemyselffromfainting.Theywereright,ofcourse.Bymydar,fourteenyearshadpassedsiheenddateonthatgravestone.Ifhehaddiedthatlongago,WilliamDaycouldnotbewhoIthoughthewas,andthatmanwasnotWilliamDaybuthisdouble.Iwoomyselfhowsuchathingcouldbepossible.Luchógopenedhispouch,rolledacigarette,andcalmlysmokeditamidtheheadstohestarscameouttodefihesky—howfaraway,howlongago?Myfriendsseemedonthevergeofrevealingadditios,buttheysaidnothing,sothatImightfigureitoutformyself.
"Letusawaythen,lads,"Smaolachsaid,"andthinkonthistomorrow."
tthegateattheerandtrekkedhome,ourversatitosmallermistakesinmyownstory.Mostoftheirsuggestionsescapedscrutinybecausemymindwandereddownlong-edlanes.Speckhadtoldmewhatsheremembered,butmuchremainedmysterious.Mymotherfadedinandoutofview,thoughIcouldnowseequiteclearlythefacetoftwinbabysisters.Myfatherwasanearlytotalvoid.Lifeexistedbeforethislife,andIhadnotsuffitlydraggedtheriverofmysubscious.Latethatnight,whiletheothersslept,Isatawakeinmyburrow.TheimageofOscarLovecrystallizedbeforeme.entmonthsiigatingthatboy,findingoutinexcruciatiailthenatureandshapeofhislife,hisfamilyhistory,hishabitsofmind—alltoassistIgelinthege.IfweknewOscarsowell,thehersmusthaveknownmyhistory,infinitelybetterthamyself.NowthatIkrueherewasnolongeranyreasonforthemtohidethetruth.Theyhadspiredtohelpmefet,andnowtheycouldhelpmeremember.IcrawledoutofmyholeandwalkedovertoLuchógsspot,onlytofinditvat.IntheadjatburrorappedinChavisorysarms,andforamomeatedtodisturbtheirpeace.
"Luch,"Iwhispered.Heblinked.",andtellmeastory."
"Aniday,fortheloveof—tyouseeImsleeping?"
"Ioknow."
Bythistime,shewasstirringaswell.Iwaiteduntiltheydisentahemselves,andherosetoeyelevel."Whatisit?"hedemanded.
"YouhavetotellmeeverythingyourememberaboutHenryDay."
HeyawnedandlookedatChavisorycurledintothefetalposition&quhtnow,Imgoingbacktobed.Askmeagaininthem,andIllhelpwithyourbook-writing.Butnow,tomypillowandtomydreams."
IwokeSmaoladBékaandOnionswiththesamerequestandutoffbyeamuchthesameway.Despitemyexcitement,Idrewnothingbuttiredglaresatbreakfastthem,andonlyafterthewholehadtheirfilldidIdareaskagain.
"Iamwritingabook,"Iannounced,"aboutHenryDayIknowthebroadstorythatSpeckgavemebeforesheleft,andnowIneedyoutofilliails.PretendImabouttomakethege,andgivemethereportonHenryDay."
"Oh,Irememberyou,"Onionsbegan."Youwereababyfoundlinginthewoods.Yourmotheredyouinswaddlingclothesandlaidyouatthegreyhoundsshrine."
"No,no,no,"saidBéka."Youaremistaken.TheinalHenryDaywasnotaHenryatall,butowoidenticaltwingirls,ElspethandMaribel."
"Youareb,"saidChavisory."Hewasaboy,acute,smartboywholivedinahouseatthetipoftheforestwithhismotherandfatherandtwobabytwinsisters."
"Thatsright,"saidLuchóg."MaryandElizabeth.Twolittlecurly-tops,fataslambchops."
"Youcouldnthavebeehaornine,"saidChavisory.
"Seven,"saidSmaolach."Hewassevenwhenwenabbedhim."
"Areyousure?"askedOnions."Couldasworehewasjustababy."
Theversationtihisfashionfortherestoftheday,intestedbitesofinformation,ahattheendofthediscussionwasthedistantcousinofthetruthatthebeginning.Allthroughthesummerandintothefall,Ipepperedthemseparatelyandtogetherwithmyqueries.Sometimesananswer,whenbihmyprodigalmemoryorthevisualcueofadrawingorapieceofwritiedafamybrain.Slowly,overtime,apatternemerged,andmychildhoodreturome.Butohingremainedamystery.
Beforethelongsleepofwinter,Iwentoff,iuponclimbingthehighestpeakinthehillssurroundingthevalley.Thetreeshadshedtheirleavesandraisednakedarmstothegraysky.Totheeast,thecitylookedliketoybuildingblocks.Offtothesouthlaythepactvillagetwobytheriver.I,theriverbendandthebigtrybeyond.Tothenorth,raggedforest,afarmortwohackedoutfromthetreesandstone.Isatonthemountaintopandread,dreamtatnightoftwoSpecks,twoDays,whatweare,ouldbe.Saveforaflaskofwater,Ifastedandreflecteduponthepuzzleofexistehethirdday,mymindclearedaheanswer.Ifthemanearedasmyfatherwasnotmyfather,whowashe?WhomdidImeeti?WhowasthemanbythecreekonthenightwelostbothIgelandOscarLove?Theonewhochasedusthroughthekitdoor?Helookedlikemyfather.Adeer,startledbythesnapofmyhead,boltedthroughthefallenleaves.Abirdcriedohenotelihendisappeared.Thecloudsrolledonandrevealedthepalesun.Whohadtakenmyplacewheolemeaway?
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